It's moments like this...

There is just something about this track. The prominent sound of the synth drum kit and melancholy vocals that just scratch an itch but if you are already know this one you know that itch isn't one you want.

Before I delve into this one let me preface with where I was when I came across this gem. I was on a work trip at my new job in Chicago during winter 2022. I had recently been abruptly broken up with from a long term relationship. But since I was a last minute add to the trip I didn't have much going on after the show floor closed. So there I am walking around Chicago alone with my head reeling. Imposter syndrome and heart ache in full swing randomly skipping tracks, bouncing between streaming services when this comes on. I stopped, cold, and lean against the one of the support for the L (train). I couldn't move, so I stayed and just listened.

This song while far from lyrically complex doesn't hold back, it gets straight to the point. The soul crushing point. "Tell me why I'm waiting for someone who couldn't give a fuck about me?" I don't know Shiloh, why the fuck are you waiting?! I don't know why I was waiting, but I don't think any of us do when we are like that. After the song played through multiple times I pushed my self up off that steal support wipe my eyes and started on my way. Something was different though, something had been healed, not fully but the wound had finally closed. Something in this simple song had done what all the talking with close friends and distractions couldn't, it allowed me to feel something i was holding back. I had gain some level of clarity. That's the thing though, sometimes music is just the therapy you need. It allows you to connect to someone or some emotion at a level that I don't think anything else can.

While this was years ago every time I hear this song I am instantly transported back to Chicago in the winter leaning against that cold steal. It not a bitter memory, if anything it is comforting. It was a turning point for me that this song brought about.

So now that you have listened to my connection to this song I hope you can allow yourself feel that pain. Listen to the slow bass hit and that high hat; just let yourself fade into the background as the lyrics wash over. That feeling saved me.